YEY! V-Day is over! :3

Sorry to all of you out there who go bonkers over V-Day, I just see not reason for all the hype. I mean why the hell do people go nuts over being romantic on V-Day? Is it not just another day? Ir it not just another number marked on a set of even larger numbers? Is love not show daily between lovers and toward those who care for each other be it family, friend, or lover? Meh, just my opinion I suppose that and I'm in one of those creepy thinking moods of mine.

Here's a thought. Has anyone ever looked into a mirror and wondered what it would be like to see the world through someone else's eyes? I often do that. I often wonder how many people and creatures alike view the world. I also happen to be one of those strange people who will stare for hours at the night sky, thinking of the past, wondering about the distant future. Has anyone ever seen Gundam Wing? Has anyone ever noticed what the Space Colonies are?

The Colonies in Gundam Wing are just highly modified Space Stations large enough to support vast cities. I mean sure they have an AI System which forms the weather inside the Colony but.... Think about it. We current have a Space Station up there! How many more years will it be before Scientist design a workign Mobile Suite? I know it will not be in this current lifetime, the next maybe? That leads on to another thing I often think about. Reincarnation.

I believe in it. I strongly believe in Reincarnation, what else would explain some of the things I dream about, some of the things I just know. How else would I have known things about my Peter if I had not known him before at some point? He has told me before of how freakishly accurate I've been with things that he'd never told me about before, things I had no previous knowledge of. How would I know unless we've met before in the past? How would I know for something he did, something that's classified as being "Out There" which, in turn would mean it isn't normal.

You know, this is a very strange thing for many to read I'm sure. I don't know, I'm just feeling very strange, very abnormal even by my own personal definition of the word. Though these moods of deep thought are rare, those who have known me long enough do know that they often awaken creativity which has been locked away, lost within my mind. Oh! Next topic! Multiple Personalities! Is it possible to have them but, not have MPD/DID? I've had many Doc's tell me I have MPD/DID but, I do not trust them, I will never trust a Doctor again. Never, not after what they did to me with the Adderall.

That is another thing... Aren't Doctors supposed to know what will hurt you? If so why then, do they prescribe medications that often kill people? Why then, did my Doctor try to kill me by forcing a chemical imbalance that has forever altered my eating habits? That forced insanity upon me and forced many friend I had from my side. I was a Beast, a vicious blood-thirsty Beast on that stuff. I lost myself to it and thinking back it scares me. All the stuff I did, all the stuff I could have done to not only myself but, to others as well.

The past has come and gone, nothing about it can be changed, the future however is a clean slate, I intend to leave my mark on the world somehow. I just pray that the mark I leave is one of a pure Being and not a vicious scar left to the claws of History Textbooks in schools to come. I thank you all for reading this, for putting up with my random thoughts, I welcome you all to my Mad World be you friend or Stranger! Congratulations, you survived a small look inside my head and at the thought that race through it.


-Chaos-